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“Evil might not prevail in the end, but it certainly doesn’t fail to devastate in its time.” ― Richelle E. Goodrich

hope-on.jpgThere is so much I could write about today; how school is going, my ASL 1 class, my math struggles, my journey searching for a job. There is only one thing that keeps coming to mind though. The tragic events that have been happening in this world. So much death and devastation is going on and it breaks my heart. Just yesterday, a man walked into a LDS church and shot 2 men. The worst part? It happened in front of everyone. When I say everyone, I mean men, women, and children. Of course, there is never a good time to commit murder but, to me, it’s even worse when so many innocent children have to witness it. I was not there, I don’t know the whole story. I can say that it must have been awful. A similar thing happened to a bishop in the ward I am in now. That was in 2010 and I remember hearing about it at seminary because the bishop of the building I went to seminary in was his brother.

I am honestly at a loss of words, how and why would anyone think about doing these things? My heart breaks for the families affected. I pray for comfort. Hug your families tight today, you never know when something tragic will happen. That’s the sad part of today’s world.

To close this post, I will post a couple of articles about yesterday’s shooting as well as the one that happened in 2010 in my ward building. Please pray, send good vibes, or whatever you do. This family needs it.

Mormon church shooting: Suspect in custody after killing one and injuring one during service

Police Search for Motive in Shooting at Nevada Mormon Church

One dead after Nevada Mormon church shooting

Mormon bishop fatally shot in California chapel; gunman killed

“When sore trials come upon us, it’s time to deepen our faith in God, to work hard, and to serve others. Then He will heal our broken hearts. He will bestow upon us personal peace and comfort. Those great gifts will not be destroyed, even by death.” —Russell M. Nelson, “Jesus Christ—the Master Healer,” Ensign, Nov. 2005, 87

“There is terrible suffering in our world today. Tragic things happen to good people. God does not cause them, nor does He always prevent them. He does, however, strengthen us and bless us with His peace, through earnest prayer.” —Rex D. Pinegar, “Peace through Prayer,” Ensign, May 1993, 67

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“If it is to be, it is up to me.” -Anonymous

me.jpgHello readers! I hope you all had a fantastic weekend, I know I did. My spring break has ended and it’s back to school for me, and many others. Today I want to touch on a topic that I have been hesitant to bring up. Let me go refer you back to my 30 before 30 list (I do that a lot lately, I know).

As I mentioned, number 19 probably threw people for a loop. I’m a returned missionary, why should I need to “find God again?” Well, today I have decided to open my heart to you all. In turn, I hope you can open your hearts and minds, as well.

In 2014 I came home from my mission and went home to a new ward. A ward that I only went to I think twice? I didn’t feel at home. And then I moved in with Hector (see my Author intro for info on him) after Thanksgiving because I couldn’t stand being where I was any longer. I went to church maybe once or twice before we got married in May. I went from being Christ centered 24/7 to nothing just like that. I was part of the 50% of RMs that go inactive. I got a stern talking to before I left my mission from one of my ward mission leaders, “You better not become part of the 50% Sister Miller.” I thought about his words a lot at the beginning but they rang in my ears less and less over time.

mormonAfter Hector and I got married, we went to church a few times and then didn’t go anymore. Then the sisters started coming over and meeting with us, it was wonderful. I missed it, I truly did. And then sisters did a drop lesson because he wasn’t willing to progress. So we went to church less, once again. Then we moved to Studio City and I think we went a total of 5 times in the 2 years we were there.

Well, then I went to Missouri for a month and avoided going to church. I wanted to, I just didn’t feel right. Stupid, I know. I returned to L.A. for a month but didn’t attend church or anything. Then I had a traumatic experience occur and moved in with my best friend. I thought about going to church but felt so broken. I didn’t want to reach out to any one. I felt like a failure, though I know that’s not true.

Well, going to Time Out For Women changed something. I finally went to church a few weeks ago. It was like going home after being gone for so long. Everyone in my ward here is so loving. They are so understanding about my divorce, they all want to talk to me. I even had dinner at the bishop’s house tonight.

I am not perfect, I never claimed to be. I’m still learning and growing, as everyone should be. And I am going to church again. I’m done being broken and feeling alone. I finally found home after my mission, it just took me a long time. God doesn’t give us more than we can handle, and I need to remember that.

Also, I have City of Enoch to thank for keeping me going. I have been constantly listening to their album on Spotify and they lift me up when I’m down. I am proud to say that I am Mormon. It is part of me, it’s who I am. I am a daughter of a Heavenly Father and I needed to remember that.

I found an article from 2013 that I think everyone should read, it is a great read about how some returned missionaries go inactive. View it here. And listen to the songs below…actually, just listen to City of Enoch’s entire album, it’s great!

As always, thank you for visiting my blog. Please know that I am truly pouring my soul out in my blog posts, especially ones like this one. I am also here to listen to anything you all have to say. If you have anything you’d like to bring up, please comment below. I love hearing from you!