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“I knew that if I allowed fear to overtake me, my journey was doomed. Fear, to a great extent, is born of a story we tell ourselves, and so I chose to tell myself a different story from the one women are told. I decided I was safe. I was strong. I was brave. Nothing could vanquish me.” -Wild (Cheryl Strayed)

Being in nature is something that everyone should have the opportunity to experience. I grew up going camping and I have always loved it. It was, more often than not, due to hunting season, but it was still a blast. My senior year in high school, my friend and I decided to do our senior pictures while camping. We brought along a couple of outfits, our makeup, and our hair stuff. The company that our school went through was very expensive me 1.jpgso we decided to do our own. It actually turned out nicely, considering the lack of photography skills we had. I, sadly, don’t have access to them right now but I did find one picture from that weekend (it’s not one of the Senior portraits, though). I had fallen and my friend decided to snap a picture of me. I’m sure you can see that I’ve changed quite a bit since then.

Another wonderful time I can remember being in a nature setting is our Summer 2008 Girl’s Trip. My grandma, aunt, cousin, and I went on an adventure. We were driving along when all of a sudden we see a bunch of elk on the side of bearthe road. Being from California, you don’t see that. We decided to stop and take pictures of them and, upon further inspection, we figured out that it was part of what is called Bear Country USA. We all agreed that it would be a nice little detour so we paid for admission and drove on in. There is a wide range of animals to see but one of my favorite parts was when we got to drive next to bears. There were so many of them and one was even walking along our van.

If your haven’t had a fun experience in nature, you need to get out there and just do it. That’s what my friends and I decided to do. On Monday, we decided to plan a backpacking trip. Yes, it’s insane but we’re really excited. Jewel is one who is fearful of the outdoors but wants to overcome that fear and Michaela wants to challenge herself. As for me, I want to get out and be in nature for a few days.

Michaela is actually the one who brought up the idea and Jewel and I agreed to do it. Ourpct.jpg plan is to backpack through a small section of the Pacific Crest Trail. If you have never heard of this trail, it’s a trail that spans about 3,000 miles over 3 states. It starts at the California/Mexico border and ends at the Washington/Canada border (or vice versa). We decided to backpack through part of the trail that goes through the Angeles National Forest.

We have never been to the area, we’ve never been backpacking, and we’re all untrained. So, is it really such a good idea to do this? Some will say yes while many will say no. We have, however, signed up for multiple REI classes specifically for backpacking and Jewel and I have multiple overnighters planned before our full 4 day trip (yes, only 4 days) in the area. We even already have plans for how we are going to obtain some of the necessary equipment for this journey.

One important thing we have done is talk to people who know what they are talking about. I spoke to my uncle for about two hours on safety and what we needed to know or do (or not do) while we are out there. Talking to people who know what they are talking about is always a good idea. Jewel has also been able to talk to her dad, who has been backpacking multiple times.

wild.jpgAnother thing we decided to do was to pick up a copy of Cheryl Strayed’s book “Wild.” Why did we do this? Because it is about her travels through the entire Pacific Crest Trail. What better way to learn about the trail than to read a first hand account?

Are we afraid? Of course we are! There are bears, mountain lions, rattle snakes and other various things that could potentially kill us out there. Why should fear stop us from pushing ourselves? We are strong and willing to let life teach us a lesson so we’re going to do this. Are we excited? Most definitely! It’s something new and new things are always exciting. We are doing something that will challenge us more than anything we’ve done in life this far.

Have you ever hiked a section of the Pacific Crest Trail? Maybe even the entire thing? Please comment below with a story from your experience. I will be keeping a journal while we are out and I plan to write all about it when we are done. Maybe I’ll even be able to backpack through the entire trail and write a book based on my experiences, just like Cheryl Strayed.

If you haven’t been to the Pacific Crest Trail, comment below with any memory you have about being in nature, good or bad. And as always, thank you for stopping by. Hit the follow button to get more updates on everything in my life.

“Fear of a name only increases fear of the thing itself.” -Hermione

According to Merriam Webster, a phobia is  an exaggerated usually inexplicable and illogical fear of a particular object, class of objects, or situation. Phobias can pretty much be anything. I have three, Megalohydrothalassophobia,  and bathophobia. Megalohydrothalassophobia is the fear of the unknown and-or large objects underwater. I am deathly afraid of getting into a lake because I feel like if I do something will grab me and eat me and I am even more afraid of going into the ocean because a shark can come attack me. I have had so many dreams where an alligator or shark is trying to attack me. Twice now those dreams consisted of my wonderful husband risking his own life to save mine. I hate those kinds of dreams, though, because I wake up in a panic, sweating and freaking out. This happened just the other day, which is mostly what prompted this post. Bathophobia is the fear of falling from a high place. I have always had this fear and sometimes it can be intense. I can go on rollercoasters but I freak out when they go upside down. Just last month we went on vacation for our belated honeymoon/first anniversary trip and my husband got me to go on Dr. Doom’s Fear Fall and I almost passed out and I was shaking the whole time standing in line then for about ten minutes after we got off. It was so scary. He also, somehow, got me to go into the Characters of Flight hot air ballon and then wanted me to move. I was frozen with terror. I just don’t know how he gets me to do these things but one day it’s going to kill me.

Everyone has a fear, whether they would like to admit it or not. You may be afraid of many things, I know I am. Fear can take many forms and can come all of the sudden or worsen as you age. For example, I used to love getting into the lake and swimming in ponds but as I have gotten older, I am more and more afraid of doing such things. If I tried to do it now, I’d probably have a heart attack!

Many times, the things we love the most are our fears. Whether its fear of losing it or fear of it meaning too much to us that it takes us over, we become afraid. I’m afraid of losing the people I love the most, like my husband, my family, my friends, they all mean so much to me and I just don’t know what I would do without them. I am so afraid that, with my husband being so much older than me, he will die way before me. I am afraid that my best friend will lose contact with me due to my moving farther away from her.

Please, share with us what your fears are and how you overcome them. Is it a crippling fear? Does your dear embarrass you? Is it a phobia?

Here’s a photo of some alligators I took when I was in SC…terrifying!

Alligators