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“Be not afraid of life. Believe that life is worth living, and your belief will help create the fact.” -Henry James

Hello readers. It has been a couple months and boy has so much changed. I’m not doing great with my goal to keep up with my blog, am I? Well, there’s always room for improvement. I have attempted to write a couple times but I get stuck. Weird, right? Anyway, I guess it’s a good time to talk about all that has happened in my life. But where to start?

I’ve posted twice in the last 5 months and not filled you guys in on the happenings in Carra’s Life. After all, that is the name of my blog, isn’t it? So let’s go back a couple months, shall we? In April I started up a Twitch and YouTube account and in May I stopped. Sad, I know. I plan to get back into at least Twitch. I also finished another semester of college in May, receiving all passing grades. I’m that much closer to graduation!

At the end of May, I was offered a job at a yoga studio. No, I don’t teach yoga, I had a hard enough time getting up in front of my class last semester for my yoga final. I actually watch children while their parents take the classes offered. Sometimes there are no kids, though, so I tidy up the studio. It’s a really laid back place that I enjoy.

In July I went on a couple dates. The first was no fun at all, it was just super awkward and we barely said a word to each other the whole time. The other was so great, we we out for ice cream and just talked for hours. We go to church together so we already knew each other and we just really hit it off.

Also in July, after my wonderful date actually, I felt my first house-shaking earthquake. Growing up on the west coast, you think I would have felt them all the time but no. For this one, I was home alone with 3 cats and I had my first ever panic attack. That’s when I knew I had strong feelings for this guy. Crazy, right? I know what you’re probably thinking, “she’s just another one of those crazy Mormons.” I actually called him in a panic and he helped calm me down because he could hear how shaken I was. Of course, all 3 cats slept through the whole thing so it couldn’t have been that bad, I suppose. I just kept thinking what I would possibly do in the case of an emergency. Michaela told me if there was an emergency, I would need to shove all the cats in the one cat carrier we have and take the car and get as far as I could. Luckily, there was no emergency and I calmed down enough to go to sleep. California is crazy y’all.

School started back up in August and I’m taking 4 classes, biology, statistics, a support class for statistics, and English. I know, I know, it’s crazy to take math and science in the same semester but I apparently saved my hard classes for the end. I’m so close, I can feel my degrees in my hands.

This month I am celebrating PCOS awareness month and the one year anniversary of when Olivander, my wonderful furry companion, came into my life. I also got my first pair of glasses, so that’s exciting.

I know life will have a lot of changes coming my way soon and I am so ready and so excited.

As always, thank you for stopping by. Comment below with how you all have been doing the last 5 months. What would you like to see on my blog?

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“Don’t be discouraged Oh I realize It’s hard to take courage” -True Colors Lyrics

36517389_1849541408687582_7254849853488889856_nHello everyone! I apologize for being MIA for so long. Has it really been since May? Well, Not too much has changed in my life as of late. Still no work, still going to school, still dating the same guy. One thing to note is that I finished my Drama 1 class last week with an A, I actually loved it. I’m now focusing on my ASL 1 and Math classes that I have left this summer. I hope to post more about my ASL class later. Today I want to be real with everyone. Life is hard, sometimes it feels too hard. It’s even harder to admit that it’s hard for you. Sometimes you have to just pull yourself together in the morning and pretend you aren’t hurting inside.

I’ll be the first to admit that I feel this way sometimes. It’s been more often than not lately and I hate to burden people with my struggles because they’re already doing so much for me.

Life has been really discouraging lately. I have applied to over 100 places; office jobs, fast food, retail, child care. So far, I had two interviews, the first one I was emailed less than a week later saying they went with someone more qualified and the other one I knew I wasn’t going to get because the interviewer was really rude to me at the end. My bank also feels the need to remind me that I have $11 to my name right now because I don’t have a job. Thankfully I have people willing to support me with the things I need so I’m not homeless, starving, or having to drop school. But I don’t enjoy relying on others to buy me food, pay for my textbooks and school fees, living in a house with no way to chip in. I can’t even qualify for food stamps because I’m taking more than 6 college units and not working at least 20 hours a week. You may think I’m exaggerating but I’m not, that is literally the policy. Apparently if you’re going to school full-time, you can afford to pay for food yourself. I also was wanting to take up YouTube gaming and created my channel and everything but ran into an issue when my computer couldn’t run the software. So, I’m at a loss.

Now, I don’t share my struggles to get sympathy or to become a charity case. I tell you these things so you know where I’m coming from. I am discouraged and I’m struggling. I’m also not saying I’m not extremely grateful for all that those around me have done to help me be where I am right now. I am more indebted to those people than even imaginable. Michaela literally changed my life. 2018 has not been the year I had hoped it would be, it started out in the worst possible way and has been a swirling rollercoaster ever since.

The question remains, though. What am I going to do moving forward. Everyone has their opinions on what you should do to get back on track.Β  The following are my plans:

  • First, I will continue to focus on my education because that’s all I really can do right now. I am on my last year of community college and I’ll be done.
  • Second, I will be doing is writing. I want to write more of my book, I do have less than 4 years to make my goal so I need to get on it. I also want to write in my journal each day, even if I don’t have much to say.
  • Third, I will be diving back into bullet journaling. I have let it slip away as of late and I want it back, I felt so happy and together when I was bullet journaling.
  • Fourth, I will be working on my art. I got a drawing notebook and pencils and haven’t done much with them. I think it’s time I do that.
  • Fifth, I will be working on my health. The stress of the last several months has taken a toll on my body and it’s showing, anyone who has seen me lately can attest to that.

I think those things are a good start. Of course, I’ll still be trying to find a job but I need to take care of me because no one else can do that for me. No one can fix the inside when it’s hurt, only I can do that. And I am ready to do so.

I thank you all for being on this ride called life with me. I will be back posting every Monday, I was away for far too long. I thought about posting so often but I was in a rut that I couldn’t get out of. But being in school (physically rather than online) has helped me immensely and I am starting to feel a little bit more like myself. I want to be me again. I, of course, won’t be the same. We’re always changing and this year has changed me a lot.

Thank you for coming to my blog and I hope you keep coming back. My posts aren’t typically this heavy but I wanted people to know my heart.

I want to close this post with something very off topic, though. This coming Saturday is International Save the Vaquita Day. Check out this link here to see if there’s an event near you. And if you don’t know what vaquitas are, they are the world’s smallest porpoises and they are going extinct. There are about 12 left and they only live in one place, the gulf of Mexico. They are being killed because they are getting caught in illegal gill nets. If you can, donate to their cause. They are amazing creatures that are suffering at the hands of man.