Tag Archives: Acceptance

“Be not afraid of life. Believe that life is worth living, and your belief will help create the fact.” -Henry James

Hello readers. It has been a couple months and boy has so much changed. I’m not doing great with my goal to keep up with my blog, am I? Well, there’s always room for improvement. I have attempted to write a couple times but I get stuck. Weird, right? Anyway, I guess it’s a good time to talk about all that has happened in my life. But where to start?

I’ve posted twice in the last 5 months and not filled you guys in on the happenings in Carra’s Life. After all, that is the name of my blog, isn’t it? So let’s go back a couple months, shall we? In April I started up a Twitch and YouTube account and in May I stopped. Sad, I know. I plan to get back into at least Twitch. I also finished another semester of college in May, receiving all passing grades. I’m that much closer to graduation!

At the end of May, I was offered a job at a yoga studio. No, I don’t teach yoga, I had a hard enough time getting up in front of my class last semester for my yoga final. I actually watch children while their parents take the classes offered. Sometimes there are no kids, though, so I tidy up the studio. It’s a really laid back place that I enjoy.

In July I went on a couple dates. The first was no fun at all, it was just super awkward and we barely said a word to each other the whole time. The other was so great, we we out for ice cream and just talked for hours. We go to church together so we already knew each other and we just really hit it off.

Also in July, after my wonderful date actually, I felt my first house-shaking earthquake. Growing up on the west coast, you think I would have felt them all the time but no. For this one, I was home alone with 3 cats and I had my first ever panic attack. That’s when I knew I had strong feelings for this guy. Crazy, right? I know what you’re probably thinking, “she’s just another one of those crazy Mormons.” I actually called him in a panic and he helped calm me down because he could hear how shaken I was. Of course, all 3 cats slept through the whole thing so it couldn’t have been that bad, I suppose. I just kept thinking what I would possibly do in the case of an emergency. Michaela told me if there was an emergency, I would need to shove all the cats in the one cat carrier we have and take the car and get as far as I could. Luckily, there was no emergency and I calmed down enough to go to sleep. California is crazy y’all.

School started back up in August and I’m taking 4 classes, biology, statistics, a support class for statistics, and English. I know, I know, it’s crazy to take math and science in the same semester but I apparently saved my hard classes for the end. I’m so close, I can feel my degrees in my hands.

This month I am celebrating PCOS awareness month and the one year anniversary of when Olivander, my wonderful furry companion, came into my life. I also got my first pair of glasses, so that’s exciting.

I know life will have a lot of changes coming my way soon and I am so ready and so excited.

As always, thank you for stopping by. Comment below with how you all have been doing the last 5 months. What would you like to see on my blog?

“You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection.” –Buddha

Sorry this is two days late but better late than never, right? Today I want to talk about having confidence because I feel that it goes well with my 30 before 30 number three which is to love myself again.

First off, I want to be honest, I don’t think I ever truly loved myself. I’ve loved aspects of me at different times but never really looked at myself and thought “I love me.” And that is a problem. I also know I’m not alone in that feeling. We are conditioned from a young age that if we don’t look, act, or sound a certain way, we aren’t good. So, our self-confidence depletes and there’s nothing there to love.

When I was in third grade, I remember hating my middle name. I have no idea why but I did. Fast forward to high school, I never liked my eyes because they weren’t the blue color I had longed for my whole life. Fast forward to post high-school, I gained weight and had acne and saw myself as ugly.

Now, I love my middle name because it’s unique. I love my eyes because they are beautiful, and as a bonus, they change colors sometimes (yay hazel eyes) so I occasionally appear to have blue eyes. I’m still struggling to love the way I look, though, even at 27 years old.

However, I am learning to accept me and the way I look and I think that is the first step. I’m also making steps to change some of it.

Unfortunately, with PCOS, it is a little more difficult to lose weight or get rid of acne but it will happen. I try going to the gym regularly with friends and I’m really enjoying yoga and will continue on when the class is over.

My next objective in loving myself? Take care of myself and the environment around me. If I do that, my body will thank me and show me love in return. This will make me loving myself almost automatic.

I know other people struggle with this so please know you’re not alone. Comment below with ways you have found to boost confidence and love yourself.

As always, thank you for visiting my blog. I hope you continue stopping by. Have a great week and weekend!