“We’ve gone our separate ways and I know it’s for the best, but sometimes I wonder, will I ever have friends like you again?” -Unknow

These girls are my family
These girls are my family

When you get older, you start looking for friends who love the same things you do and stop looking for friends who are just there to keep you company. It took me awhile to find true friends. I moved around a lot until 3rd grade so I didn’t have any friends. Then I got held back so all of my “friends” were gone. I started making new friends but they went away by 6th grade. In 7th grade (Junior High) I finally met a girl who I could really truly call a friend. I still remember the way we met,we were in PE and I was talking to my crush from summer school and she was eves-dropping. I had asked him if he were going to the school dance that week (or was it the week after?) and he said no, that’s when she shouted “I’m going!” I kinda shrugged her off at first but when we went back into the locker room. We had lockers next to each other and I saw that she was alone and so was I. I started talking to her and we made plans to meet up at the dance. This friend is MishaDot, by the way. At the dance, she introduced me to one of her best friends that she had grown up with, Mere. Mere was new to public school because she came from OLV (a Catholic school) and she didn’t have many friends. After that day, we hung out all the time! I eventually met the girl who I loved so much and she was like the little sister I always wanted, Sarah. We were closer than close and inseparable. I also met Becca in my English class. Becca and I had our own little “friend-iveraries and we later found out that we were distant cousins. Alas, all good things must come to an end and that mean friendship as well. Sarah started to change and we went our separate ways but I still think about her from time to time and wonder what she’s doing with her life. I hope for the best for her. I always have. Mere started drifting from us as soon as we started high school. She made new, older friends and she didn’t really need us anymore I guess. the summer before our Sophomore year I moved to Missouri, returning a year later. Becca had changed and I tried to love her through all of her changes because I knew she was just trying to find the real her. I missed the old her but I should have known that people constantly change. Our friendship was on hold for a short period, twice actually. Junior year we fought over a guy and that kinda tore us apart for about a month. And the Senior year, we fought about other stuff and didn’t talk at all for a good few months. Now, almost two years after graduation, we are finally going our separate ways. Mishadot is moving to a small town up in the mountains a few hours away, I’m going on a mission and then who knows what after that, and Becca…well, we’re not sure what she’s doing any more. I will always love these girls like family. I will cherish the memories we made, the endless rounds of Truth or Dare where they got me to sing to my crush of 4 years or coloring each others faces with lipstick.

Mere and I colored our faces
Mere and I colored our faces
Mere, Becca, and I about to go to a church dance
Mere, Becca, and I about to go to a church dance

There are so many things that I wanted to do with these girls. I know that they will forever be in my heart and I hope that I can at least be the kind of “used to be” that they can still talk to and trust. The are my family and they mean so much more to me than they will ever know, no amount of time or distance can change that. And I know that I have new friends, like Victoria and Jewel, who I am so lucky to know and have, but there’s nothing like your first real set of friends. MishaDot, Becca, Mere, and even Sarah: If you guys ever read this, I love you and I will ALWAYS be here to talk to. I will always be there to lend an ear or a shoulder to cry on. I promise! And when I get married I want you guys to be there, not just see photos. You are my family. Family doesn’t have to run in the same blood line.  After seven, almost eight years, we have experienced too much to forget. I hope you never forget! And always remeber who you are and that grandma loved you like her own granddaughter. I know she wanted the best for you girls just as I do. Forever your friend, Care-bear!

The King and Queen Ball 8th grade
The King and Queen Ball 8th grade: Sarah, Becca, Debbie, Mere, MishaDot, and I

3 thoughts on ““We’ve gone our separate ways and I know it’s for the best, but sometimes I wonder, will I ever have friends like you again?” -Unknow

  1. It must have been hard to let go of your younger years. Meaning, letting go of the friends who were most important to you.

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